亲爱的你

以为不露痕迹孤独却写在眼里

不敢让人知道体贴都埋在心底

用坚强修饰孤寂用冷漠隐藏真意

谁能了解你其实渴望有人陪你

谁能懂你你其实只是害怕而已

让我疼你抚慰你曾为爱受过的委屈

让我爱你包容你所有情绪

不要害怕不要拒绝不要将我推离

让我给你一个家让我宠你爱你保护你

亲爱的你

约定

你我约定，难过的往事不许提，
也答应永远都不让对方担心，
要做快乐的自己，照顾自己，
就算某天一个人孤寂……

Currently

Lately I am puzzle and confused with my future. I am thinking that where and what is my future. What should I do for my next year and steps? Should I discuss with my family first or just make decision by myself? The most important that I need to care is the result and finance. Is it sufficient for supporting me to further study at UK for at least two years? How about the university that I choose is it suitbale and pretty good with everything? Oh gosh, that's too many things that I need to concern and think. I should think that what is good for me and what is the best way to pursue my dream. I've planned it well, but it seems like things do not go smooth as I thought. That's why that I am confusing now. Thinking, thinking, and thinking again. I still don't have a proper and final decison yet. Now is already end of the year and I should have a decision, so that I can prepare well. Time is up. It is the timed that I need to make my final decision. Hope I can choose the way that I want and is the perfect way.

Future

What is future? I strongly believe that everyone is thinking about this and planning for your whole life. There have plenty of people fail to plan for their future, but some are really good with that. It is obvious to know that as they've succeed in career and have a happy family. What are the things that they still need or desire? I'm not sure for that, at least they already have almost all the stuff. If they're greedy, maybe they'll require more. As I know that, people are always dissatisfy the belongings and demand for more and more. But do they think properly that, once they already achieve it, they will try to acquire other things or goods. The satisfaction of desire and greedy is unlimited. Is it kinda scary? Surprisingly I'll say yes. That's why for now on, I just wanna to have the things and future that I want, I'll try to have a high demand and infinity greedy.

Actually I already planned my future at years ago and I couldn't ensure that I would follow my plan and do for it. But I believe that it is good to know what you should do and it will be the happiest things that can ever happen to me. Now, I need to plan for my study and if follow my plan I'll further study to UK and I'll choose University of Middlesex and after that will proceed to University of Leeds or Sheffield to complete my Master. That is one more thing that I'm not sure yet, which is I don't know what I wanna major. Clinical Psychology? Forensic Psychology? Child? Family? or even psychiatrist? If I can do it, I wanna be a psychiatrist, but I know that it's not an easy. I'll try to achieve it and of course I'll work hard on it to become a psychiatrist. That's my currently plan for my future.

I know that my planning has less something that is important for everyone, which is love. I always think and believe it is not a suitable time to have boy friend during education time. Probably, this thinking will occur is because the family and environment. My brothers begin to date with girls when they almost finish their study and have Ms. Right when they already begin their career. So, I think I'll choose the same way with them as well. In addition, at this moment, I still can't find my Mr. Right. I need to be patient and look forward to wait him appear. I don't care when, but is better before 30 years old. Ha Ha!

Hope that I can follow my plan and achieve it whithin the period. I think I need luck and bless.

爱的理由

以前我总觉得两个人相爱一定要有理由，

可是随着年纪的增长，经由身边周遭人们的恋爱经验，

你会发现爱情还真是没什么特别的理由，

可能只是因为对方笑起来很可爱，

也可能是有一天你心情很坏，

对方突然打了通電話讲了个笑话给你听，

他可能不知道你心情刚好很差，

可是你在这最坏的时候接到電話，

你就跟着视他为真命天子，

甚至开始相信起命运这种事。

Waiting

Waiting will make me feel like everything is become unusual and slower. Just now I need to wait four hours to attend another class. My friends are absent as they have text tomorrow. Lucky I meet a friend and we chat together. Anyway we still feel very bored and nothing can do at here. Every where is crowded when is lunch time. Both of us already have lunch, so we just buy a cup of drink and sit at there waiting our next class.

Waiting is really bore and hate the feeling.
Next time hope to have a better time schedule.

My stuff

Recently I was kinda having a bad luck. my laptop and cellphone had problem.
I need to change my laptop, gosh, need to spend money again.
last time my cellphone's screen was broken and already spent few hundreds to change the LCD.

Now, I need to spend few thousands for my new laptop. I'm planning to buy around two to three thousands. I don't want buy expensive laptop again, it really hurts me. I bought four thousands laptop and had a lot of problems. perhaps, is my bad luck.

Please, I hope I can have good lucks in everything. bless me, please...

你好吗？

如果有一天遇到了老朋友，
你会开心吗？
你会问候他吗？

昨天无意中得知了你的消息，我没感到开心也没想要问你在这几年里的点点滴滴。我想应该有五六年没你的消息了吧！有时会想要去向你的朋友问你最近的事，但还是忍着了，毕竟是你没跟我联络。

或许是我怕，我怕再联络回时，不知要说些什么，要做什么！
也或许是你不要跟我联络，因为当初是你伤害了我，也是你欺骗了我。

但是时间会把一切都冲淡，也会帮我从记忆里删除所有伤心的事！
事情也过了那么多年，我们是不是应该要忘记？
写得容易，但真的要忘记时，是不是也那么容易呢？
是不是把一切都写出来，也会帮我忘记呢？
曾经我觉得把所有不要开心的事给写出来，会帮我遗忘，
但当事情又被回忆时，所有的事都记的清清楚楚！
也许是时候要想过另一个方法了！

如果我勇敢的面对你，是不是会比较好呢？
如果有一天，我和你真的见面了，我希望我能鼓起勇气跟你说说话，也有勇气跟你做个普通朋友.

放下

人之所以痛苦，在于追求错误的东西。

如果你不给自己烦恼，别人也永远不可能给你烦恼。因为你自己的内心，你放不下。

好好的管教你自己，不要管别人。

你随时要认命，因为你是人。

这个世界本来就是痛苦的，没有例外的。

你什么时候放下，什么时候就没有烦恼。

每一种创伤，都是一种成熟。

当你烦恼的时候，你就要告诉你自己，这一切都是假的，你烦恼什么？

根本不必回头去看咒骂你的人是谁，如果有一条疯狗咬你一口，难道你也要趴下去反咬他一口吗？

忌妒别人，不会给自己增加任何的好处。
忌妒别人，也不可能减少别人的成就。

永远不要浪费你的一分一秒，去想任何你不喜欢的人。

得不到的东西，我们会一直以为他是美好的，那是因为你对他了解太少，没有时间与他相处在一起。当有一天，你深入了解后，你会发现原不是你想像中的那么美好。

这个世间只有圆滑，没有圆满的。

不要刻意去猜测他人的想法，如果你没有智慧与经验的正确判断，通常都会有错误的。

你要感谢告诉你缺点的人。

时间总会过去的，让时间流走你的烦恼吧！

不要因为小小的争执，远离了你至亲的好友，也不要因为小小的怨恨，忘记了别人的大恩。

感谢上苍我所拥有的，感谢上苍我所没有的。

当你手中抓住一件东西不放时，你只能拥有这件东西，如果你肯放手，你就有机会选择别的。
人的心若死执自己的观念，不肯放下，那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已。

如果你能够平平安安的渡过一天，那就是一种福气了。
多少人在今天已经见不到明天的太阳，
多少人在今天已经成了残废，
多少人在今天已经失去了自由，
多少人在今天已经家破人亡。

恶口永远不要出自于我们的口中，不管他有多坏，有多恶。
你愈骂他，你的心就被污染了，你要想，他就是你的善知识。

你不要常常觉得自己很委曲，你应该要想，他对我这样已经很好了，这就是修行的功夫。

世界原本就不是属于你，因此你用不着抛弃，要抛弃的是一切的执著。
万物皆为我所用，但非我所属。

学会用理解的，欣赏的眼光去看对方，而不是以自以为是的关心去管对方。

成熟的人不问过去；聪明的人不问现在；豁达的人不问未来。

发光并非太阳的专利，你也可以发光。

你可以用爱得到全世界，你也可以用恨失去全世界。

爱的力量大到可以使人忘记一切，却又小到连一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容纳。

人总是珍惜未得到的，而遗忘了所拥有的。

如你想要拥有完美无暇的友谊，可能一辈子找不到朋友。

Wednesday

What a boring and busy wednesday.
My class end at 9.30am and I've the whole day free time.
I don't know what should I do.
Lucky, I sudden remember that tomorrow I'll back to my hometown.
So, I decide to tidy up my room, wash my clothes.
Oh, it takes two and half hours to finish everything.
Now just hope that today will not rain.

Tomorrow will back to hometown at morning.
Last two weeks, I bought the ticket and quite lucky cause still could got the ticket.
I've six days holiday.
I should enjoy it much.
After holiday, I'll busy with my study again.
Study, study and study......

Hello to you

I grab this note from Cynthia at facebook...
I like the meaning...

你知道吗？为什么？
坚持看完这，它们将对你认识自己在生活中的角色很有帮助！

你知道什么是"家庭"（family)吗？
你真的了解"家庭"（family)这个词背后的含义吗？
当你知道答案后，你会大吃一惊的！

FAMILY 家庭Father And Mother, I Love You
爸爸 和 妈妈 我 爱 你们


为什么男人需要一个妻子（WIFE）?

那是因为妻子:
W---Washing 洗衣
I---Ironing 熨衣
F---Food 做饭
E---Entertainment 让老公开心


为什么女人需要一个丈夫（HUSBAND）?

那是因为丈夫:
H---Housing 提供住房
U---Understanding 理解
S---Sharing 分担
B---Buying 购物
A---and 以及
N---Never 从来不
D---Demanding 让人费心


你知道一个简单的"你好"（"HELLO"）
可能是一个很甜美的词语吗?
尤其是当这个词是从你心爱的人口中说出时，

"你好"（ HELLO ）这个词意味着:
H=How are you? 你好吗？
E=Everything all right? 一切进展顺利吗？
L=Like to hear from you 我很高兴能知道你的消息！
L=Love to see you soon! 希望能尽快见到你！
O=Obviously, I miss you .....

so, HELLO! Good day!很明显，我很想你…所以，你好！你好呀！

September

This month I think isn't that kind of busy with study month. Suppose begin from next month. This semester is my last semester. After that I'll start my 1st year degree. Then my 2nd and 3rd degree will study at UK. Wooh... Finally, I can further study...But I will go there alone 1st...After a semester, Davka just will come and join me...Never mind...I still have friends, relatives at there...So, I'll be here just a year...After one year, I'll leave my family and friends for three years...I think should be okay...Be independence...Be tough...Life still goes smooth...Therefore, I should enjoy this semester...Once I begin my degree, I'll not play anymore...Enjoy my day...

Friends ♥

Dear friend,

How can you guys have many plans at next month?

You say wanna go to Genting Highlands

You say wanna go to hang out this Saturday

You say wanna go to beach

You say wanna go to Bangkok

You say wanna go to Kota Kinabalu

Oh my gosh...
Next month I am not really free cause final examination is coming soon
Sorry again if I reject again and again
I know you guys can forgive me
After examination I can go whatever you guys wanna go
That time we just hang out and have fun together

Love you guys much ♥ Miss you guys ♥

Weekend

I had a busy but wonderful weekend

I went to Johor for attending my cousin brother's wedding dinner

I was very glad to attend it

I met almost all of my relatives

We already half years didn't meet

Now because of this wedding dinner, we all can gathered again

One thing that was quite sad which was we didn't have enough time to chat

Thursday I reached at there

Friday I went to Jusco Tebrau City for shopping

Saturday and Sunday were the wedding day

Monday I already came back to study

Anyway, I thought we could meet at few months later

Perhaps is at public holiday or Hari Raya or Chinese New Year

Hope has more time to chit-chat and shopping

I wanna go to Singapore......

Next time need to choose a proper days

Desire to get it....

Nokia 5800 Xpress music!

I want to buy this....

I like this...

Change! Change! Change!

http://www.nokia.com.my/link?cid=PLAIN_TEXT_1125198

New Brand

A NEW BRAND for my blog...

Speechless is updated by the new template...

Now the time is going to late...

Fall asleep...

I'll continue to design Speechless tomorrow after class...

Anyway I like the template much...

Hometown

Hooray !!!

I am going back to my hometown later...

I wanna to eat "zhong zi"...

Feel hungry now...

Today I have learned one thing that about people thinking during class. I totally and absolutely agree with that and feel like wanna share to everyone.

1. People love to be agreed with

2. People hate to be disagreed with

3. People like other people who agree with them

4. People dislike other people who disagree with them

How about you think? Do you agree with this four 'truth' ?

Personally, I strongly agree with that.

慢

今天的时间过得好慢好慢！

我已不知做了多少的习题！

当我抬头看时间时才发现今天过得好慢长！

早上上课时都一直在想几时才完毕？

总觉得今天的我好累好累！

但我已睡足足八个小时了，还觉得累！

或许是我现在的生活方式好无聊；

每天一早起来上课，然后下课，

回到家做习题，冲凉，吃饭，温习，睡觉！

了无乐趣的生活！

想找朋友一起出去，可惜每天的功课越来越多！

也越来越接近考试，presentation，quiz~

我常常才想study life 几时才能真真的完毕！

或许三年后，也可能是四年后！

只能跟自己说加油了！

加油，相信自己！

if you think you can，you can do it！

Today, I hear a bad news from my friend, Sebastian.
He tells me that one of my friend's father was passed away by accident last two days.
I'm really shocked when hear this news from him.
I also confirm with other friends and the answer still remain the same.
I blame them why till now just tell me.
They say still have a lot of friends don't know this news.
I tell this bad news to some of his friends and everyone is unbelievable.
I'm quite sad and I can't attend the funeral.
I just can call to my friend and console him.
That all what can I do now.
I'll visit him when I back to my hometown.
Take good care of yourseld, my dear friend.
Be strong and be a real man.